Condolence From: Pamela LaBrake
Condolence: 5 years since you went to heaven Dad, now Aunt Tiny has also joined you. So many have left us. As always missing you.
Tuesday August 16, 2022
Condolence From: Pamela
Condolence: I didn't forget the 4 years since you left us. Now Uncle Fran is with you also. Aunt Tiny will be so lost without him. Miss you and love you.
Thursday September 02, 2021
Condolence From: Pamela LaBrake
Condolence: Dad,
Tomorrow is three years that you left us. Seems so much longer now. World is a crazy place right now, you would not have done good with the pandemic, because you had to be on the move. I know you are with all of your sisters and most of your brothers who passed not so long ago. Miss you so much and love you Dad.
Saturday August 15, 2020
Condolence From: Pamela
Condolence: It's been two years Dad, miss you so much, my heart really did break.
Friday August 16, 2019
Condolence From: Pamela LaBrake
Condolence: Dad awhile back I put in a request to Channel 13 to honor you in the We Salute You segment. They showed it yesterday and it was very nice, watched it over and over and cried. Miss you so very much. I made sure to let everyone know it would be on, Charyzz was letting Hoyt know so I'm sure he saw it. Love you Dad. https://wnyt.com/news/we-salute-you-donald-leffingwell/5199885/?cat=13240&fbclid=IwAR0uHIkNSoo_a5QgjXG1C_hC36or5wkOozZcEeyTOy6I35ATqYie5FqFfwE
Monday January 21, 2019
Condolence From: Pamela
Condolence: Dad
Today is a year since I last saw you alive. Since I noticed your breathing change, since I saw your breathing had stopped. Since I waited in the parking lot for Dan and seemed like forever but was a short time. We held hands walking down the hall to you and I said "Are you ready?" and Dan said "how can you ever be ready" Somehow I was too calm, my thoughts right now where for Dan, Dan who had been there every minute of everyday for you and me. He was our rock, our voice of reason. And when we walked into your room and he saw you gone my heart shattered into a million pieces for him. It's been a year, but time is a funny thing, it seems like I haven't seen you in so long, but then it seems like not long ago I saw you the last time getting ready to pass over. Being honest I am haunted some days and nights, seeing your unseeing eyes and the grimaces you sometimes made, which did lessen that night into morning. I still feel you tightening your grip on my hand. A year Dad and they same time helps heal the pain, I don't cry everyday like I used to, but a piece of my heart and soul died when you died. I will never be the same without you. Dan and I are able to think of some things now over the course of your illness that we can laugh about and talk about. The burned table at Denny's, the "raw" prime rib, you hovering over Nick while he was BBQing, Dr. Nolan saying you were just "eccentric" Thank God for Dan who caught so many medical/medication mistakes that I know would have caused you more discomfort and would have taken you sooner. There have been so many firsts without you, Fathers Day, your birthday, the July 4th picnic, even Dan having to sign your last income tax filing. So here I am rambling Dad, just know I've missed you everyday, every hour and minute. We Love you.
Thursday August 16, 2018
Condolence From: Pamela labrake
Condolence: Dad The choices I made the past month I first would wonder if you would approve and I think you would. Planning ahead and today doing something to help me be more independent. Went to the Price Chopper the other day that we went to together, Renee brought me, I saw a guy that reminded me of you, just a little but enough to feel the ache in my heart of missing you so much.
Monday April 16, 2018
Condolence From: Pamela
Condolence: Maybe you know what I tough time I'm having still, remembering your last hours with us, not as peaceful as I had prayed. I hope you felt me holding your hand and your face, I hope you heard me talking of memories past, and how many times I said I loved you. I keep seeing your eyes that couldn't see me, but I hope that you felt my presence. I hope you know you were not alone. Dan and I fought like hel* to be able to keep you at Kingsway which you called home, but it was not to be. I hate that you had to go to the Albany County Nursing Home, it was awful there, except for Frank the nurse who had a big heart and helped as best he could. I feel so much guilt that I did not bring you home with me. I know Dan is right that I probably could not have done it, but in my heart I wish I tried. They say time helps heal the pain of loss, but my healing has not begun. I know you are in a better place where loved ones welcomed you with joy and smiles. And I hope that soon my heart can heal, even just a little bit, because I know you wouldn't want to see me in pain with so many tears. Dan and I miss you so much.
Sunday January 14, 2018
Condolence From: Pamela
Condolence: I come back here Dad because many days it still is not real to me, that you are truly gone. I'll think I'm fine and then something reminds me of you and I feel broken. We miss you. We love you.
Wednesday October 11, 2017
Condolence From: Pamela Leffingwell LaBrake
Condolence: How can you miss someone so much in just one day Dad? Somehow making calls and going through the motions but everything is blurred. You now know things we never told you, like Hank buying your house, which I know you'd be happy about, and Aunt Kathy already in heaven, we just couldn't bear to tell you, but I know she greeted you with her sweet smile. The one person I could not bear to call was Hoyt, Sharese has been so good to me all this time Dad and she took care of that. You know now the hard decisions Dan and I had to make, and all of them were because we love you. Dan has your dog tags that you always wore and I know he will treasure them. You will have the military honors that you wanted and deserved. You have to wander no longer, because you are home now. Until I see you again, your in my heart.
Thursday August 17, 2017
